My application for the ALS drug Relyvrio was shot down by insurance a few days ago. There is no appeal process because patients who are on ventilators are not included in clinical trials. That means insurance can say it doesn't benefit us. It was very hard to get that news. They say I'm in the … Continue reading My Battle Against Bitterness
Category: Joy
On My Husband’s 37th Birthday
"Nothing prepared me for the privilege of being yours." - Sleeping at Last, "Turning Page"2 What you have to understand about the way I love Evan is that I am desperate for him. I can't shut up about him, and I don't want to. People say that the sign of a strong relationship is that … Continue reading On My Husband’s 37th Birthday
My California Kitchen
Photo by Ella Olsson on Pexels.com This piece is about the last summer I could eat before losing the ability to chew and going on a feeding tube. Summer in Amber We held that whole summerIn our strawberry sticky hands,Trapped it in our tiny kitchenWhere sunbeams tangled with our legsAround too much furniture,Each piece an … Continue reading My California Kitchen
The 4th of July – ALS Style!
This is a photo I took on our cross-country road trip just before we crossed the Mississippi River. Ever since we adopted dogs, I haven't been a fan of fireworks. They terrified Malka, our dog who passed away on September 26th, which was surprising because she was a fierce protector. She used to huddle with … Continue reading The 4th of July – ALS Style!
Rejoice, for Yesterday a Miracle Happened!
Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com When I read the news, I immediately started sobbing. We were about to start trach care and Evan was holding all the materials, but as soon as he saw the first tear fall, he put it all down. "What happened? What's going on, honey?" I could hear the mounting panic … Continue reading Rejoice, for Yesterday a Miracle Happened!
“And I Think to Myself, What a Wonderful World!”
2 Every time I go to a doctor appointment - my main reason for getting out of bed and into my uncomfortable wheelchair - I blink at the brightness of day. The blue summer sky is blinding, and it always takes a minute to adjust. Once my eyes accept the sunshine, I immediately wonder how … Continue reading “And I Think to Myself, What a Wonderful World!”
For the Love of Dog
2 I have become a tobii wizard. It's true. Once upon a time, it took me fifteen minutes to type one paragraph. Now, I glide across apps, carrying and adding to my content, dipping into shortcuts to rearrange my words into uniquely crafted messages that sound authentic to yours truly - all at a … Continue reading For the Love of Dog
The Sun’ll Come Out April 19th
3 I haven't written a lot about the problem that has rendered me bedbound for quite a few months now. You may think you understand the severity of the situation. However, what you know is the tip of an iceberg that you soon discover is actually the edge of a glacier that is moving inevitably … Continue reading The Sun’ll Come Out April 19th
The man I kiss at midnight
2 What you have to understand about the way I love Evan is this: I am desperate for him. I can't shut up about him, and I don't want to. I have heard people say that the sign of a strong relationship is that there is no sign of it on social media because the … Continue reading The man I kiss at midnight
3 Things to Be Grateful for This Thanksgiving If You Have ALS
3 2 Those of us living with ALS or loving someone who has it are gratitude experts. Don't misunderstand me. We have our dark, bitter moments. As we catalogue our blessings - the precious time we have had on earth, our remaining abilities - we inevitably think about the other side of the coin. Yes, … Continue reading 3 Things to Be Grateful for This Thanksgiving If You Have ALS
How I Live Now: Life With ALS 