This piece is about the last summer I could eat before losing the ability to chew and going on a feeding tube.
Summer in Amber
We held that whole summer
In our strawberry sticky hands,
Trapped it in our tiny kitchen
Where sunbeams tangled with our legs
Around too much furniture,
Each piece an island
Of earth-born treasure:
Paper cartons of berries on the unfinished wood cart,
Artichokes and avocados, mangoes, tomatoes, and ginger roots
On the battle – scarred table.
Sometimes a lone carrot
Hid from our merciless knives.
We hid from the diagnosis that confirmed,
Even scheduled, my end.
During those hours, our fears dulled to hum as
We took turns navigating
The narrow channels of the archipelago,
My hips and your feet too wide to sail in tandem.
We worked on recipes and honesty,
Rushing to use all the food before it spoiled
Sharing fragile secrets before they
Rotted us.
September stole those golden months away,
Leaving us gripping memories of
Overflowing brown paper bags from the local farm,
And hanging baskets by the window
For pounds of onions, beets and sweet potatoes.
They’d spent long enough underground
Dreaming of the sun.
Best of all, I imagined
The round prints of your toes
On the flour-coated floor:
Our very own happy paths.
How I Live Now: Life With ALS 