Dedicated to the grieving families of Seth Poling and Sandra W. Marlowe. May peace be with you. Does anyone ever sit in the place the missing loved ones had at the table? No. It will never just be a chair again. I had a place, you had a place, but that chair that was your … Continue reading The Empty Chair
Category: Memories
My California Kitchen
Photo by Ella Olsson on Pexels.com This piece is about the last summer I could eat before losing the ability to chew and going on a feeding tube. Summer in Amber We held that whole summerIn our strawberry sticky hands,Trapped it in our tiny kitchenWhere sunbeams tangled with our legsAround too much furniture,Each piece an … Continue reading My California Kitchen
The 4th of July – ALS Style!
This is a photo I took on our cross-country road trip just before we crossed the Mississippi River. Ever since we adopted dogs, I haven't been a fan of fireworks. They terrified Malka, our dog who passed away on September 26th, which was surprising because she was a fierce protector. She used to huddle with … Continue reading The 4th of July – ALS Style!
Eight Years In…
Photo by Hakan Erenler on Pexels.com Eight years ago on June 8th, I was diagnosed with ALS. At diagnosis, I was given 2 - 5 years to live. We all are. I was just 28 years old. After my diagnosis, I immediately said goodbye because that's what I was told to do. I was told … Continue reading Eight Years In…
For the Love of Dog
2 I have become a tobii wizard. It's true. Once upon a time, it took me fifteen minutes to type one paragraph. Now, I glide across apps, carrying and adding to my content, dipping into shortcuts to rearrange my words into uniquely crafted messages that sound authentic to yours truly - all at a … Continue reading For the Love of Dog
My Depression Diary
3 4 4 4 2 Trigger Warning! Forward: When just over a month ago I sensed that my mind was changing, I was overcome with a frenzied need to record everything I thought and felt. Even before I understood that I was depressed, I realized I was going somewhere that outsiders could never truly visit. … Continue reading My Depression Diary
Unabridged: “Is Your Doctor Hurting Your Mental Health? Why You Need an Emotionally Intelligent Doctor and How to Find One”
3 3 2 If you are anything like me, you do a little research before choosing a doctor. Patients can easily learn about the traditional aspects of their doctor's qualifications, such as the college they attended, years practicing, and awards earned, with a simple Internet search. However, it's quite a bit harder to get a … Continue reading Unabridged: “Is Your Doctor Hurting Your Mental Health? Why You Need an Emotionally Intelligent Doctor and How to Find One”
Three Dreams and A Dragon
When I was thirteen, I bought a small, blue, canvas-bound book whose title, scrawled in loopy silver script, read, "The Interpretation of Dreams." I purchased it because every morning, I awoke with vivid memories of three, sometimes four, dreams. About half of them were nightmares, but they didn't trouble me as much as what I … Continue reading Three Dreams and A Dragon
A Dream
If my dream of collecting and expanding my best essays and turning them into a book ever becomes a reality, there are a few new topics I am dying to write about that are just too involved for my blog. I would devote a whole chapter to the ways ALS has changed my understanding of … Continue reading A Dream
Sleepwalking
Tonight, after reading and listening to a podcast for a few hours, I felt stir-crazy from sitting for so long. I needed to get up. Specifically, I felt like trying out the Movements I saw on the Netflix series “The OA”. I was just about to do that when I remembered I could not get … Continue reading Sleepwalking
How I Live Now: Life With ALS 