Dedicated to the grieving families of Seth Poling and Sandra W. Marlowe. May peace be with you. Does anyone ever sit in the place the missing loved ones had at the table? No. It will never just be a chair again. I had a place, you had a place, but that chair that was your … Continue reading The Empty Chair
Category: Grief
Can AI Voice Cloning Be Used For Good?
Photo by Polina Kovaleva on Pexels.com I'm pleased to present the link to the story for which I was recently interviewed, "Can AI Voice Cloning Be Used For Good?" by Kaleef Starks, Mark Armendariz-Gonzales, and Clera Rodrigues. The interview focused on the changes ALS has caused in my communication, as well as my experience with … Continue reading Can AI Voice Cloning Be Used For Good?
Eight Years In…
Photo by Hakan Erenler on Pexels.com Eight years ago on June 8th, I was diagnosed with ALS. At diagnosis, I was given 2 - 5 years to live. We all are. I was just 28 years old. After my diagnosis, I immediately said goodbye because that's what I was told to do. I was told … Continue reading Eight Years In…
On the Other Hand
2 It can be hard to "live my truth." Just because I have had a revelation or realization does not mean I can instantly incorporate it into my lifestyle. Especially because my hope just got a kick in the teeth. The latest bump in my pump did not work. This means more time on oral … Continue reading On the Other Hand
My Depression Diary
3 4 4 4 2 Trigger Warning! Forward: When just over a month ago I sensed that my mind was changing, I was overcome with a frenzied need to record everything I thought and felt. Even before I understood that I was depressed, I realized I was going somewhere that outsiders could never truly visit. … Continue reading My Depression Diary
The Surprising Reason I Need to See You Dump Ice Water on Your Head
For me, the Ice Bucket Challenge is not just a way to raise money for ALS research. It's not just about hope. The effect on me goes much deeper when I watch the videos. I know I have a vast support system that includes you, my dear readers. However, I can't see you read my … Continue reading The Surprising Reason I Need to See You Dump Ice Water on Your Head
A Wild and Lonely Belief
7 5 8 8 9Dedicated to Dr. Goslin for giving me permission to believe, and my husband Evan, who shields me from the worst of the winter winds. I am a voracious reader. I always have been, thanks to my parents and grandparents, who planted books around my house in places I could reach even … Continue reading A Wild and Lonely Belief
A Lesson on Joy
In the movie adaptation of my life, the climactic scene would go like this: the camera slowly sweeps up to where I am snuggling into a warm plaid blanket on a rustic porch. The sun peeks out from where it slept behind the mountain range. The soft light on my face shows I’m at peace. … Continue reading A Lesson on Joy
Oceans Between Me and You
Lately, I feel like the little girl in this music video - that I have to put on a cape and mask just to face the world and my increasingly isolated place within it. Of course, that's not a healthy or sustainable way to live, but I try all the same. Perhaps I try because … Continue reading Oceans Between Me and You
Sleepwalking
Tonight, after reading and listening to a podcast for a few hours, I felt stir-crazy from sitting for so long. I needed to get up. Specifically, I felt like trying out the Movements I saw on the Netflix series “The OA”. I was just about to do that when I remembered I could not get … Continue reading Sleepwalking
How I Live Now: Life With ALS 