At the recommendation of ALS Worldwide 129147 and with the approval of my beloved neurologist, I have begun an unconventional course of medications. I use the word "unconventional" because some of the medicine is either not typically used in cases of ALS or is being used outside of the FDA approved dosing. Additionally, none of … Continue reading Rag Doll
If my dream of collecting and expanding my best essays and turning them into a book ever becomes a reality, there are a few new topics I am dying to write about that are just too involved for my blog. I would devote a whole chapter to the ways ALS has changed my understanding of … Continue reading A Dream
Today while out on a (st)roll, I witnessed a toddler run out into the street in front of a car. I was unable to do what every molecule in me demanded: race to the boy and snatch him up out of harm's way. I couldn't even scream in horror or point and shout so a … Continue reading Learning Helplessness
In the movie adaptation of my life, the climactic scene would go like this: the camera slowly sweeps up to where I am snuggling into a warm plaid blanket on a rustic porch. The sun peeks out from where it slept behind the mountain range. The soft light on my face shows I’m at peace. … Continue reading A Lesson on Joy
I am in a painfully bright room. White walls, white cabinets, white floor, all illuminated by fluorescent lighting. Evan is to my right, seated in a black plastic chair, left leg on his right knee, hand on his ankle. He is several days behind on his beard maintenance, and he keeps running his hand through … Continue reading The Nightmare
X-File 06102015: ALS Agent Fox Mulder, the protagonist of the cult classic TV show "The X-Files", is on a mission born of personal tragedy. He is obsessed with hunting down UFOs in order to find answers about extraterrestrials because as a child he witnessed his sister being abducted by aliens. His search for answers is … Continue reading Choosing Hope Over Fear
Lately, I feel like the little girl in this music video - that I have to put on a cape and mask just to face the world and my increasingly isolated place within it. Of course, that's not a healthy or sustainable way to live, but I try all the same. Perhaps I try because … Continue reading Oceans Between Me and You
The chaotic politics that have defined 2017 must not overshadow the legislative efforts to make life better for ALS patients and families.
Tonight, after reading and listening to a podcast for a few hours, I felt stir-crazy from sitting for so long. I needed to get up. Specifically, I felt like trying out the Movements I saw on the Netflix series “The OA”. I was just about to do that when I remembered I could not get … Continue reading Sleepwalking
I have a serious case of drug trial FOMO (fear of missing out). I just completed my year-long Tirasemtiv drug trial. I don’t know whether I was on the placebo or active drug. However, I have been invited to join the open-label extension of the clinical trial. That would mean I definitely would have an … Continue reading Drug Trial FOMO
How I Live Now: Life With ALS 